Trust Yahweh and Let Him in.

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Shalom sisters, man has it been sooo long. I desire to write so many blogs but fail at completing them. I truly am not going to make an excuse and say I don’t have time. I haven’t prioritize this blog as I should. BUT. Now that I’ve told you (especially myself) that, I will be working on more frequent posts.

I don’t celebrate my birthday but I am a year older, and prior to this time I reflected a lot about my life and where I was with myself and Yahweh. I reflected on where I am and where I want to be or more so where Yahweh wants me. And I realized something. I’ve spent 20+ years trusting myself and have gotten nowhere. Jokes on my flesh, right? I live with my parents rent-free, college graduate, Master of Social Work candidate, working a job with great pay, “self-sufficient”. This is everything that “I” did because I always wanted it. This is what I defined as success. Independent black woman, right? please. I realized I spent the majority of my life trusting myself, and yes I climbed up WORLDLY ladders. But let’s be real, my self esteem was crazy low, I did not have a prayer life where the enemy knew he couldn’t mess with me, unless someone was lifting me up in prayer, I was not in peace, did not have a sound mind, bitter, mad at soo many people and myself. I mean, what wasn’t I dealing with? And it’s all because I did not Trust the Elohim Almighty. For many women in the world, this may not hit them/you (maybe) hard, if it doesn’t maybe you need to re-evaluate yourself. Seriously, do it.

Being the driver of my life for so many years, the Most High BROKE me and humbled my derriere. I truly thought I had it together, but I didn’t even have Him! WHAT?! Have mercy!!! DANGEROUS!!! Yes ma’am He humbled me cause I couldn’t do it myself. I am not going to be prideful and say I got tired anyway, because it’s nothing I did ( tearing up). If I wanted to, I could of drove my life some more, but HE helped me realized I was not going anywhere. Oh how the heart is wicked. But when the Most High chooses you, you can run as far as you want, but you have to make your choice if you will obey or be condemn. I made my choice.

The point of sharing all of this is to say: STOP trusting yourself. You know nothing. You know some vocabulary, proper English, some math, some history. That’s cute. Good job. But do you have applied knowledge, any spiritual gifts, a relationship with the Most High? Can Yahweh call YOU a friend? Are you at peace in the midst of the storm? Have inner joy? Have a passion in pleasing Yahweh? I don’t know about you but it’s recently I realized WHERE JOY was. DUH! in Yahweh! not me! Without Yahweh, I am foolish and without. NOTHING! UNWORTHY!

“Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6

“Blessed is that man that maketh the LORD his trust, and respecteth not the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies.” Psalms 40:4

“Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.Trust ye in the LORD for ever: for in the LORD JEHOVAH is everlasting strength” Isaiah 26:3-4

Set thy heart upon thy goods; and say not, I have enough for my life. Follow not thine own mind and thy strength, to walk in the ways of thy heart: And say not, Who shall controul me for my works? for the Lord will surely revenge thy pride. Ecclesiasticus 5:1-3

Purpose your heart to be set apart for the Most High and watch how He will take care of you. I love the back seat. Because I know that Yahweh has a better route for me then I EVER would’ve chosen for myself.

Be at peace sister. 🙂

 

Healing

Shalom viewers. Tonight, I was posted up on my bed and I was moved to share the healing of Yahweh. I pray this blog post encourages at least one viewer to seek healing from Yahweh. I pray that you understand that you cannot shut your wounds without the help of the ultimate Healer. For many years, I believed that time healed. All you have to do is move on and you’ll get over it. But what the Father taught me is that only He can heal. What time does is sweep and hide the wounds deep in the inner bellies of our beings, but truly they are never gone. The cure to all hurts, diseases, pains, grief, bitterness, hatred and much more is healing from Yahweh alone.

What Christianity teaches is that once you ask for healing, you receive it. Boom! it’s yours. But in actuality, healing does not work that way. Yahweh is not a Elohim whom you go and rub on and ask for assistance, and then He just provides it. In order to receive healing, we must meet Yahweh’s condition.What are His conditions?

And said, If thou wilt diligently hearken to the voice of the LORD thy God, and wilt do that which is right in his sight, and wilt give ear to his commandments, and keep all his statutes, I will put none of these diseases upon thee, which I have brought upon the Egyptians: for I am the LORD that healeth thee. (Exodus 15:26)

Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the LORD, and depart from evil. It shall be health (healing) to thy navel, and marrow to thy bones. (Proverbs 3:8-9)

To meet Yahweh’s condition we must fear Him and be obedient to His laws, statutes and judgments. We must rid ourself of sin  and turn to Yahweh.

I spent the first couple of months as a Hebrew Yisraelite, holding on to hurts, bitterness and unforgiveness towards others and myself.  I thought once I didn’t see the people who hurt me anymore, I was healed. Moving on… Good! Not the case. I ask Yah for forgiveness of being bitter and unforgiving but I truly didn’t forgive others even myself. I spent my life holding on to pain and “acting” like I was alright. But in reality I was building up strong walls around the hurt and not allowing Yahweh in. I proclaimed I loved Him, but how could I, with an unforgiving heart. I was not meeting His conditions.

It was not until I forgave myself (still in the process) that I realize, I need to forgive others and move on. Who am I to choose who to forgive when the Father freely forgive those who ask? I cast down that pride in the name of Jesus. But healing is not done in an instant. It truly is a daily process in letting the Father in, and trusting (knowing) He will do an excellent work in you. HalleluYah. I look forward to being completely healed so that I can share a concrete testimony as His witness.

 

 

DIY Air Freshener

 

 Why buy febreeze or Glade every so often when mixing the following ingredients is not only saving your bucks, but non-toxic and just as effective:

  1. Rubbing alcohol
  2. Water (filtered preferably)
  3. Essential oil of your choice (I choose lavender because it was what I already had) 

  
To begin, you’ll need a spray bottle that will allow you to control the mist control. This will determine how you would like the air freshener to disperse from your bottle. 

Be sure to grab your measuring cups (a cup and 1/4 cup)! 

For every cup of water you pour into the bottle, pour 1/4 cup of rubbing alcohol and 15 drops of your essential oil. Follow these steps until you fill your bottle to your desired capacity.

Label your bottle so you know from first hand what’s in there! Test it out!l especially after getting some cleaning done sis! 

Some essential oils that would smell great are: peppermint oil, orange oil, rose oil, sweet almond oil and lemon oil! 

Enjoy!

Chastisement from the Father


I haven’t written for two weeks and there is a reason. Sis, be mindful I actually am filled with topics and ideas as I usually share on Instagram. But let’s just say my Father has been disciplining me and I’ve been listening and obeying His voice.

I praise Him for the chastisement because He told me:

“My son, despise not the chastening of the Lord; neither be weary of his correction: for whom the Lord loveth he correcteth; even as a father the son in whom he delighteth.”‭‭ (Proverbs‬ ‭3:11-12‬)

“And ye have forgotten the exhortation which speaketh unto you as unto children, My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him: for whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth. If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not? But if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are ye bastards, and not sons.”‭‭ (Hebrews‬ ‭12:5-8‬)

“As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent.”‭‭ (Revelation‬ ‭3:19‬)


Because of His reproof, I know HE LOVES ME. I am grateful, cause my heart doesn’t deserve love, but because He loves me, I love Him and I must obey Him.

Okay.

I want to remind my sisters who read this blog that I am a babe in my walk. Literally, more like an infant crying for mama and her milk (The Word) in desperate need.  Which means the things I share are things I’m convicted by in my own life and what I’ve gained understanding of BUT is very little. I practice it in my walk but I still have a way to go. I’m not better. I don’t have it together. It’s the Father that’s keeping me together. For real, for real!

To end, I beg you to understand that again: I do not know a lot. If anything, I’m ridding myself of some knowledge I thought was my truth. This walk can be overwhelming because I thought I had it together… BUT Yah. Man oh man He fixed me. He is breaking me and reforming me into His own. Hallelu Yah.


This blog reflects my walk. It does not reflect my knowledge, for there’s nothing I can boast about. What I know comes from Yahweh, my Father. And this blog is a public statement to encourage other sisters to walk towards the Father on the strait and narrow way. Few will find it, few will have ears for what they hear but the path IS there.

I pray that this blog continues to point you to the Father and not my walk. I’m not important here, becoming better for the Father is what is important. As the Father works with me understand that my uploads may decline. I will share only what my spirit moves me to share. Not what I learned and have studied. There’s a difference. Shalom and blessings to you.
“My brethren, be not many masters, knowing that we shall receive the greater condemnation. For in many things we offend all. If any man offend not in word, the same is a perfect man, and able also to bridle the whole body.”(James‬ ‭3:1-2‬ ‭KJV)

Confession: I’ve murdered. 

As much as this blog is to help sisters become better in Christ, this blog is also to help me.

There’s a lot I still can’t share because there’s a lot I’m still working on. And I’m not a believer in telling a sister what to do when I haven’t searched for that spot in my eye (Matthew 7:3-5).

So to start: I’ve always thought I had one commandment together which was “You do not murder” (Exodus 20:13). But as I was studying my Word I found this sisters:

“Do not marvel, my brothers, if the world hates you. We know that we have passed out of death into life, because we love the brothers. The one not loving his brother stays in death. Everyone hating his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has everlasting life staying in him. By this we have known love, because He laid down His life for us. And we ought to lay down for the brothers. ” ( 1 John 3:13-16)

How often do we love our brothers and sisters? And what are some ways we present our hate for our brothers and sisters?
I think as women and growing women (for those transitioning), it is really vital as daughters of the King to watch our thought process. Our thoughts reveal our hearts. And sister even scripture states that the heart is wicked (Jer. 17:9).

THINK: Have I said mean things intentionally to hurt my sibling because he/she hurt me? Things like: I wish you were never born, you’re so stupid, etc.  Or even in my actions, how have I showed love. Did I suck my teeth when your annoying coworker had a lot of bags in their hands and were walking too slow in front of you? Did you roll your eyes when the sister filled with happiness came around to hug you? (Is that normal?!)

Spend a lot of time examining how is it you choose your words /actions and why is it you slander those the way you do. Have they hurt you? Do they offend you? Why haven’t you seeked Your Father’s face for healing instead of telling the other sister about herself and how she hurt you?
REALIZE: The Spiritual war is not between man. What a Spiritual war this would be if we all realized we are distracted. How easy is it to forget that the war is between good and evil. Realize we waste time murdering each other when we just got to murder the enemies’ kingdom. He’s the enemy, he’s the liar, he’s the murderer! Not your boss!

Just to relate, if you personally know me, you know I am quiet-spirited for the most part. But when it came to someone trying to throw me under the bus, or disrespect me?! Oh, your girl was quick to let them know, I am not the one! And I was also quick to let them know they’re wrong and that they were this and  that.  I didn’t want to be around them or even look in their eyes. Ouch. But little did I know, it was also bitterness in my heart that didn’t allow me to love them when they hurt me. The same tongue I used to praise Jesus with, was the same tongue I used to say the nastiest thing about someone else. Oh man, who does my tongue serve?!

In becoming better, I encourage you to join me in following God’s commandments. Murdered your hater today? Ask the Lord for forgiveness. Truly, pray for your hater. They’re also fighting a fight. Murdered the girl that tried to talk to your boo or ex boo? Ask the Lord for forgiveness and to remove the spirit of bitterness. Words hurt. They hurt the Father when He hears your words too. Speak and practice acts of love sis!